Here I am sitting all stuffed up on my Computer chair- actually a dining chair pulled in to set with my desktop and writing this.
Today was indeed a day full of surprises. Just when I thought I’ll share the news; the reality struck me on my face. There isn’t anyone around me, present physically who would watch me getting this excited. But that’s the most beautiful part of it all!
It’s been an hour and a half and I am still crying.
Sniff! Wait! I am not upset. I am happy. I am too choked up with emotions to be able to take control over myself. So what if I couldn’t step out of the country for higher studies or works? Things indeed have their strange ways to find you around. Leave the foreign travel alone, I don’t even have a passport; one of the many repercussions of being parentless. Just when I decided to make my limitation of being stuck to home (alone) my biggest advantage and started to write; something very strange happened.
When I say cyber relationships; I don’t mean a chat or two alone. I am referring to friendships or relationships that then go on as though no geographical limitations ever existed. I would cheers my cuppa over the chat or even take tips for cooking! With endless sessions of gossips over the chat; life suddenly seems to smile back at me- telling me to imitate the gesture. At other times, there may be emails asking me about my mundane life and them sharing tit- bits about their personal life. I strongly feel that these maybe the relationships those have already been settled against my Karmic chart. That there isn’t anything left for me to give to them. Instead, they are there to fill me up with the emotions that I once thought had estranged me.
I wonder how benevolent they must feel while picking up some gifts, packing those carefully, with a casual hand- written note thrown in, reflecting upon their sheer joy in doing so; so that the packet survives the travel to India!
Who doesn’t love to receive gifts?
Surprises, gifts, hand written notes; I have a huge collection of those neatly displayed at my home. I have almost all of those gifts with me that I have collected over the years of time. Some of those are as old as collected by my mom when she was a kid! The more recent ones include a box sent by Blaga and that uncle I met during my train travel.
Just a few hours back, I received one from Jannie now.
Woohoo! Am I excited? That’s an understatement for sure. If I haven’t harped enough about how thankful I am to writing for re- inventing me; here’s yet another benediction of the same. It really doesn’t matter where (geographically) I am or how I may be (mental state of being); all that does is what they perceive of me through my written words. A few things that I scratched open with child- like enthusiasm made me see enough Love for me to last my lifetime or maybe even many more; considering the fact that this note would float in the cyber-space breaking all limitations of timelines.
I am humbly pleasured and thankful indeed to receive this packet with an organic soap, her 1st music CD, a packet of note- cards, name cards, a greeting with a hand written note. The contents are exactly how I used to while writing to ………… It used to be a sheer bliss in arranging for surprise birthday celebrations while at work.
All that is coming back to me now!