Standing at a Cross- Road

A table clock has 12 marks displaying the 12 hours of a day. After crossing 12 at noon, it again strikes 1.

Here I am, standing exactly where I had stood 12 years back. Some huge Divine Clock had as if fixed me then, with the hour’s wing making me strike 1 again!

  • It’s the similarity of the circumstances that is disturbing.
  • If that’s not all, it’s only reminding me of yet another episode that had happened in 2005.
  • What is even more haunting is the fact that that’s exactly where I have reached writing My Biography.

What exactly is Time wanting me to read?

  • That I am losing an opportunity- again like I had then?
  • Or it was never an opportunity- to begin with?

I am fighting out within myself to stay as Indifferent as possible- given the current situation and my thought process. I am judgemental. I am trying not to reach any conclusion and leave it at that before trying. Once I make up my mind- it’s difficult to change it- no matter what!! Moreover, I just don’t run after the gone; That’s so not me. If at all, I walk back, the moment I notice a shaky trait without wasting a second.

Although it’s the current development that is keeping me occupied, I am drifted back to a more recent stance that had happened to me in 2005. There’s more to it- even that one’s an unfinished business. I feel that it’s about time that it would hit me anyday now. Once again.

Destiny calling maybe..!!

Whichever way; looking at such uncanny resemblances, I am bound to step out of my Cage. I am preparing to fly away- far off again. It’s just about time that I break free once again. Standing at 1 o’clock, I am reading much beyond a “Life coming full circle”. There’s more to it. There are messages hidden for me.

It’s not the similar situation alone- that maybe all; there are other beginnings it’s hinting at. I am waiting to embrace all. I am desperately trying to figure out which way or more is it wanting me to look at. Is the new situation capable of lifting me and away? Or is it only a precursor of the actual and bigger thing waiting for me? I would have so loved the native thing to come upon me too.

I am unable to read it completely. There are bunch of perspectives yet to be explored. Everyday ever since that’s happened (again), I am reflected onto a new aspect.

Will I be happier? Yes, because stepping out of my captivity is all I want for now- at any cost. It would be too cheap at any price.

I am waiting for you My Dear Friend Destiny. Strike me again!!

After Note: Destiny did strike me 😀 My Intuitions proved to be right- “It was never an opportunity- to begin with..

Sweet Sensation – If Wishes Came True
This one’s one of my fave songs- the 1st one to be precise. After maybe 20 years, I have been able to locate the video.. Today having being able to; it feels really special. One, this one is my 1st song I had identified myself with. Two, I found it right when I was to press this post. I mean, I found my long lost love song 😀 when I was writing about a full- circle situation. This situation seems to be God- sent; or else, why would I have wanted to “hunt” for the song again out of the Blue? Oh yes, BLUE is the word..!!
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Corporate worker, textile designer, writer.
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5 Responses to Standing at a Cross- Road

  1. Ankur says:

    Hey Olivia
    I am back.Was reading ur blog..Didnt get it for what things you are at crossroads.What happnd in 2005 who is again bringing u in full circle?
    May be i missed some of the stories i guess..:)

    • Olivia says:

      Hi Ankur Sweetheart- welcome back.. Congratulations on your achievement.. 😀

      I had yet another episode with my 1st crush- an unfinished business.. I am yet to reach there to write about that in detail. Hope to make it till there asap.. Nopes.. You haven’t missed this story- but there are loads that you have missed- Maybe refer “My Life Instance”

      I definitely missed your presence here- xox

  2. Jamie Dedes says:

    Momentous moments in time … synchronicities … portentious … Good luck, Olvia. 🙂

    Nicely written …

    • Olivia says:

      My Dear Sweet Jamie.. There’s so much to write and so less time.. I am so surprised that a simple reflection like this one had conveyed so much.. Thanks for your wishes.. I could never do without them.. 😀

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