I haven’t been so contented- as I have been this year, since a long time now!
Almost like self- contained. Friends, cozy time, love and laughter; all such ingredients have been pouring on me like how it’s been snowing in UK. Only it started with me right through the Fall!
This year brought upon a Spiritual Evolution in me.
I had been spiritually inclined since my early childhood days. This time around, I have been able to initiate practicing some virtues as well. I do have my own book of guidelines. I have edited the contents so as to hold some balancing virtues as well. Virtues, those are now balancing my Karmas. I have en-grained those values as a part of my very nature.
My thoughts were morphed into pleasant realities.
I could see my “wishes” turning into dream like hallucinating experiences. This year, a lot of things materialized how I had always wanted them to. Some of them were as primitive as 25 years old. I was able to start writing again in form of blogging. I have located almost all my childhood friends. I have asked for apology wherever I felt I have been not good, forgiving just about everyone..
- Inner contentment
- Friends- long lost!
- Balancing of quite a few past stances
- Able to write again
- A little bit of travel
- Some celebrations
- Self- realization
Realizations hit me like lightning thunder.
I experienced how practicing of certain values have liberated me. Some of the things I had held against my mom; I realized how the very things helped me shape up my Life when I was deep, down and under.
Some of my Karmas have gotten balanced.
Perhaps that’s why, whenever I make a wish, it’s granted- however small or big it maybe with a smaller wait time! Some bigger ones are in the queue now.. 🙂
I am no more a recluse.
I now socialize and move around. I don’t worry sick of getting judged. I don’t give a damn to it. I am the way I am. If they aren’t comfortable, they need to shift their places.
I am not afraid to lose anymore.
This year, I had few of my friends come over for a visit and stay. There are still a few who have all the time to move everywhere around excepting for accepting my invitation. Like I said- nevermind them. For now, I am being like a vortex transversed. It doesn’t bother anymore if I would be able to carry on with them or if they would want to move on and such. I have accepted the fact that not all of us are as thoughtful and sentimental as I am.
I expect no more.
Neither do I hold myself back. I don’t sulk anymore. I have always been kind of scared and somewhat skeptical too. Although still a bit choosy, I now hold no more. I don’t expect any return of any favor or gesture any more. I let them be as they wish to be.
I have forgiven all.
Every single human being included. I hold no grudge against anyone. Whatsoever.
I am still battling with “not expecting” from friends or people around.
I sulk no end when I feel I am being ignored- doesn’t matter the excuse. Reasons are only that.
I have dawned upon my attitude of “never giving a damn” yet again.
I am not yet a careless but definitely a carefree one.
I try and blog as much as I can.
I feel my energies are being channelized in much better manner this way. I have adopted this unique way of communicating with the whole world for want of a single dedicated relationship. I don’t want any to strike me now either.
I am now all set to welcome the New Year with as much Enthusiasm and cheer as never before..
The next year will be mine!