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All the posts are filed under certain headers. Please check the following links for the continuity and reference or relevance..
Introduction
As I Am - My 1st Blog Post//Preface- Biopic Log
My Life Instances - Biography
Coffee Table Stories - Light Humor//Sarcasm//Day-to-day caricature
I, Me, Myself - Philosophy//Retrospection
Men and their Mannerisms - Humor//Sarcasm
On a Lighter Note - Fun//Humor//Sarcasm//Thoughts
Be My Guest - My Home Pics
*** Poetry/Dreams/Art- Work ***
My Previous Blog is now merged in my Biopic Log- here. Incase you experience any difficulty in navigation, please do notify of the same in the comment form of that post.
Epilogue - Celebrations//Epic//Thoughts
Erroneous Newspaper Reports - Inconsistency in Newspaper Reporting
Law and Dis- orders of the Society - The Obsolete Judiciary System
Medicinal Facts - Science//Research//Facts
Category Archives: My mind
Actuality
I was sipping Bailey’s watching a show with him when a thought struck me. I guess that’s what’s happening to me right now. I am an empath. I feel everything around me & sometimes even at a distance. The word … Continue reading
Definition
Letters can not know the depth of pain… they do not feel. Pain is experienced; & the one who does, becomes a different person. Letters do nothing for the aggrieved. They only appear imprinted on pages. Once the page turns, … Continue reading
Basic Instinct
Rarely do instincts change… be it sipping a drink to dull the moise of chaos to come aware of the surrounding sounds of train honking and a distant dog barkin between intermittent stillness. Or, identifying the approach of yet another … Continue reading
My best friend
As you grow up, you realise certain words so commonly used in preteens have a rare place in grown up world. As I write ‘grown up world’ I get a feeling of all things morbid and so mature that it … Continue reading
Pause
I want peace. Like absolute stillness on the snowy mountains. Crystal clear like spring water. Utter silence with no shrivels on the surface… or beneath. No sound or voice or breath. Not a whiff either. No hint, no whisper or … Continue reading
Flickering moment
I feel burnt out. I’m unable to sit down knowing the time is not right… for anything at all. It is a walk through a pitch dark tunnel with no sight of light or the other end. It feels maybe … Continue reading
In transit
Often I turn to reading the posts I wrote here before now. Each one of these are an alarm clock to my yester year struggle, my patient dealing with the transition joining the present I desperately wanted to leave; now past … Continue reading
Vocation
For now, food on my plate is warm and I have the money to eat what I want and I earn that with not having to fork my respect.
I want to say the same for my essence too.
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Lost and found
I am writing this in the times when “search” is only a click away or a tap actually on a touch device. Yet, at times what’s lost seems to be the only prototype making the loss more profound. Anyone would … Continue reading
Resumed… recovered; life!
She showed up after all… the me me. Along with, she brought some of the best recollection of life long lost… so it seemed not long ago. In the hiding, I was still me. It was time I get her … Continue reading
Turning away to look beyond
I am sitting from where I still see someone dropping me home one late evening. The moment and several more preceding that became perfect reminders to who I am. Yearlong period of yearning and wishing had met fulfillment in that one … Continue reading
Denouement
That tender cord holding me in shape almost snapped today or so I thought. After the initial shock of realization subsided, I figured it had come off quite a while back. I know this pattern. It hits me when I see … Continue reading
Sole existence
A strange feeling is seizing my mind, a mixed reaction for the days to come. I’ll be alone, left completely on my own. It’s been a while since I tasted solitude. At the farthest scratch it lasted only few hours … Continue reading
The shift
Sharing the other half of my mind is pending. It’s growing by the day threatening to take over becoming the dominant part of how I feel. The limbo has shifted. They say dark rum with cola takes you to heaven; … Continue reading
Travelling distances and in time
I am so tired… wrong! I’m still up typing this post sipping a fat blue cup of tea in my bedroom. I’m enjoying the famous Delhi chills in January of this New Year. Cyber space is my world, one another … Continue reading
Transitioning… from being human alone
Things are changing. I am not writing about it- for now for I’m busy playing my part, enacting my role. I see the person in me changing. Vodka still gives me a high… only I don’t need that ecstasy anymore. … Continue reading
Walking till the post
Today was my last day at work… last day of my first work- year at Genpact. Hitting the dial keys to log on to the bridge to barge a phone- extension remotely took me back by a decade. I was … Continue reading
Celebrating mom’s demise…
Time spent with mum suddenly seems distant. Memories associated are growing hazy like some old discarded mirror left unclean reflecting the light with the dust eating at the contours of the reflection. I haven’t quite survived the loss though I pretended … Continue reading
Deliverance
Abundance was seeping into average and before I knew, it blended with insignificance only to become non- existent. My identity and the amount of contentment waned before I could register the nightmare coming to shape. Self-dependence had zoomed straight into nothingness. It … Continue reading
Conclusion begins now
I don’t lose things… ever. I find a way to find them back. If I wish for something, it crawls to me almost always. If only that held authentic for people too. My work- off days kinda went really well … Continue reading
Framed
The beaded string wall hangings were out a month back, Ganshu darling was made to sit back at his place a fortnight later. Today, I took mom’s picture photo frames out too. The frames occupied the wall- space as though … Continue reading
“Re”
It is only natural to send emails across at work; yet, I owe you for this one again. The other day you had wanted me to send that insignificant team outing presentation across to HR Manager and Process Manager, but … Continue reading
Ground in thoughts
Am I finally embracing my much-ignored-by-me roots or is it that finally I am learning to go back to the shell I belong? Then again, do I belong to any? The realization set my mind back in the time now … Continue reading
Close down
Yet another movie I finished watching a moment back. Tears know how to flow alone, so I washed them off my face. Still, a tear or two rolled down my cheek. I was losing myself to depression starting from living … Continue reading
Suspended- II
Here I am, back to writing some more. I am doused into terrible depression, having gone totally reclusive, not eating or even peeking out. All I want to do is sit still or probably sleep and in an un-ending continuation. … Continue reading
Suspended
It was barely nine in the morning and I was crying hard. Pressing the white smock up my eyes, I cried as though mourning. I screamed as if I were a retard. The losses are too many to be pointed. Where … Continue reading
Weathering up
When kids, we are happy, playful and ever- rejoicing. Our only worry: how to add to merry making! Then one day, we grow up. We all do. Our playful self gets locked up in the closet with our toys if … Continue reading
An unexpected visitor or a divine blessing, was that?
If you wish to know of love for animals, pick up a copy of Ramayana right away. It takes awarding each-one-his-rightful-place to a whole new level. Perhaps, the first of the humanoids were born in Hindu scriptures; though not quite … Continue reading
Celebrating an anniversary
20th January, 2003 One Monday that was (a decade back), that changed my life. I wish I could add- for good. There were people and celebrations alright; but something still had made me cry. I didn’t have a family, so … Continue reading
Misplaced Relationships (edit)
I have been wedded for a decade now. If only the said wedlock had held true even for a week. I haven’t been vocal about it. To gain what in turn? Some rude judgements? Negating opinions? More questions? My father … Continue reading
Misplaced relationships
Today’s my wedding anniversary and I am definitely excited. Just how many long years I’ve waited for this day. I saw this date some six years back, well almost… but the day never arrived. Not then. I have been married … Continue reading
Prayers; I need those not
The day you are ready to do what I want or do if you already are, the day you understand what I need, the day you feel you wish to know what I do (need), the day you do all … Continue reading
Say it with a flower
I won’t give flowers, I’ll myself to you. Will you care to hold me forever? It was only after a week that I noticed another bud hidden beneath the mauve bloom. How had I not before? I had held the … Continue reading
Sleepless beauty
That I am fixing a drink at 3.30 in the morning, could mean one of the following: I may be stressing… Something must be bothering me beyond my ability to handle it… I may be anxious… Perhaps, depression is winning… … Continue reading
Time stops at The Lake House
What happens when a dainty doctor and a handsome architect falls in love so madly that time gets negated of its existence? Dr. Kate (Sandra bullock) while moving out of the lake house dropped a note for the next tenant … Continue reading
Numbed feelings emote
I am sm audacious enough to laugh even in the face of death. That’s how I am known amongst the most. Then there are those who realize this with the passage of time and others who often scratch a wounded … Continue reading
The fl(oo)ewing beetle
5th August, 2012- 11.00pm I was clutching dearly my laptop, when the electricity died after going dim for a few couple of minutes, leaving me wondering, if that was due to another one of those grid failures, since that’s how … Continue reading
Everything’s due to a change now…
My analysis is yet to reach a conclusion! A fleeting thought; yet, expressed and with a load of conviction, conveyed (in time) to the one it concerns. A few highly insignificant things took to occurrence for me to reach the … Continue reading
Re-reading through time
This is one of those miracles of my own world. Often I am blessed to achieve what I yearn for… maybe in a little twisted way that amounts to a surprise story, a memory to keep always. This isn’t the … Continue reading
Transitory
I love taking trips… and that is an understatement. To me, the thrill of starting a travel is far greater than the reaching to a new destination. In other words, I don’t look forward to reaching and making the most … Continue reading
Feelinglessness
I am numb again. For crying out loud, it’s a chewing gum and I am not chewing. Instead of feeling depressed like I did earlier every time it progressed any further; today, I feel light headed- as though unburdened… relieved … Continue reading
Back to sketching life!
31st may, 2012…5pm Sitting on the table… er rather a chair, placing my diary on the “table” (now), I’m scribbling fast lest I forget the words I wish to pen down to be typed down in a little while from … Continue reading
Ice- Block
You may regard it as yet another silly thought passing through my mundane mind. I tried not to think of it at all, after originally wanting to post it here. I am doing that after all! Evening 6.30pm, I was … Continue reading
Karma… my savior for today!
This instance dates back to when I was in 7th standard. The boys’ gang and I were bunking the Library period. We loved to irritate the teacher. Through the whole half hour of that Friday after the recess period, she … Continue reading
What about NOW…?
It was in winters last year, December of 2011; when I had popped up the question one more time. I choose to leave it on to the readers’ imagination to take a guess about it. There weren’t any words given … Continue reading
The Beauty of the Beasts… contd.
Wish Made-It’s about time I might want to say that often, I call upon my destiny by asking for it over and over again. In single breath, I go on chanting night and day, as if meditatively for the “day” to … Continue reading
Dumbstruck!
6th May, 2012- 6.30pm I am walking the way down to my house. Serenity is playing around as much as loneliness on my state of being. For most of you, “feeling lonely” is a phrase, for me it’s a call that … Continue reading
Being thrown at; around
I have failed to understand, how can people cut off on me? Am I such a retard that I don’t understand that they possibly don’t want me anywhere around them or is it that I have a great knack of … Continue reading
Death of a relationship
Firstly, I can’t take rejections, secondly, it stabs my heart to let go of people and then, if I am left to stay dumb… that’s a perfect recipe to whip me into a cryptic psychopath! If I say that this … Continue reading
It ends here
It’s been a year that I’ve been contemplating committing it. Just who knows I might have taken some step towards achieving the desired outcome already? I am not a coward, that’s all they say; I won’t. But before I fall myself … Continue reading
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