Im not willing to forgo, forgive or forget what’s caused to me because of My Father’s committance to an awful series of Blunder..
I wish to
- Make him realize that what he has done is a far cry from being Human much less being civilized & or cultured..
- Bring the matter out in Public & Society to set it up as an example & eye- opener..
- Not use his name anywhere on any Public/Govt Document since he was the one who practically disowned me..
The bitter memories & experiences because of him & his absence are very much an active part of my Life- even now- My friends know it.. Anyone sensible would understand.
I am aware that it won’t be any bit easy to file a case (in the light of our present day Judiciary System), & pursue it- thanks to our Society & their Criticism for Fighting-against-Men Women. Each step would take me back to the Humiliation & Hurt that still is the very rule of my Being. The Memories or the Past Events would stare at me & the Defendant’s Lawyer would strip me down at the slightest available opportunity- both literally & otherwise. I have already been taking the sh*t for over last 17 years.. I know that just 17 lines in the Notice would not shake his being.. but would make sure that in the process, I smear him in his own dirt..
I wonder if my Parents’ Marriage was at all registered for this day to happen; people didn’t register their marriages so religiously back then.
I was too young to have understood & react in the meanest manner possible; why in the name of Humanity was I slaughtered & robbed of my VERY BEING? I was killed in my sleep only to wake up & realize that the whole world is Dark & would always remain so for me.
- My dad gave me no opportunity to understand what he was to before doing so; nor did he make me understand later. Likewise, I don’t wish to give him any inkling to what I may be up to; nor would I show him any mercy later. I wish to do exactly how he did it. He had hit me where I didn’t know then & that the wound was never to heal. With each passing moment it hurt me even more. In solitude they would haunt me & in Society, they made me a line to be picked up by anyone & everyone.
- For once let me prove that I am his daughter with the typicality of same “hostile instinct”.
- My only sorrow- my mom isn’t alive to witness the comedy of the tragedy that he had sown the seeds of years back.
- If he has ignored & denied the fact of being a father to me; I would now want to ask him about his negligence towards discharging his Father- ly Duties.
- He has completely chosen & has been exercising to deny my existence; why am I being forced to write his name when my mother also happens to be my biological Parent?
- I wish to wound the hands of the clock; make him live the Agony & Grief that he has caused to me.
- My dad gave it to me; I wish to return him his Due.
I wish to press charges under the various sections of Law for his Cruelty & Neglect towards me, Embarrassment that he has caused, having failed to discharge his fatherly duties; making me lead a life of an Orphan, worse an illegal child.
Do you understand that he has crippled my Thought Process towards Men for all times to come?
Why should not I now pay him in his very manner being HIS denied blood?
Please help me with your suggestions in the comments section below..
- I have gone through a lot in the past, which I am still going through..
- I have taken great pains to trace him up, can’t afford to let go of him now..