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All the posts are filed under certain headers. Please check the following links for the continuity and reference or relevance..
Introduction
As I Am - My 1st Blog Post//Preface- Biopic Log
My Life Instances - Biography
Coffee Table Stories - Light Humor//Sarcasm//Day-to-day caricature
I, Me, Myself - Philosophy//Retrospection
Men and their Mannerisms - Humor//Sarcasm
On a Lighter Note - Fun//Humor//Sarcasm//Thoughts
Be My Guest - My Home Pics
*** Poetry/Dreams/Art- Work ***
My Previous Blog is now merged in my Biopic Log- here. Incase you experience any difficulty in navigation, please do notify of the same in the comment form of that post.
Epilogue - Celebrations//Epic//Thoughts
Erroneous Newspaper Reports - Inconsistency in Newspaper Reporting
Law and Dis- orders of the Society - The Obsolete Judiciary System
Medicinal Facts - Science//Research//Facts
Tag Archives: Loss
Mourning upon a Birdie’s Death
I am still sat wearing my white T and denim skirt. So..? I had gone out. I haven’t changed to my frock yet; those which I wear at home. I have definitely washed my feet. I do whenever I step … Continue reading
In Remembrance of My Mom
After completing a Dream and a Poem; I have been wondering what to write in here- in My Biopic Log.. My mom comes as a savior- again. By the time I finish this- it’ll be the next day already- 23rd October, … Continue reading
Part- I Trying to Change My Destiny again
I am my mom’s shadow, carved out of the same skin. Often, I have faced similar situations that my mom had too, in her times. I would write a detailed one once I am done making changes to this pattern. … Continue reading
Brewing Inquietude- II
No sooner Shelly had left, the arena had come alive. All 4 of us were sat in the Living Room, when I had once again suggested hiring a maid for atleast sweeping and swabbing; I was curtly quieted. Inturn, Lady P … Continue reading
Stepping into South Delhi
November 1998 through March 1999 I wasn’t really aware of the fact that I traveled to South Delhi- Malviya Nagar to work everyday. My boss Roopak had been pressing me that I shift to that part of the city soon. … Continue reading
Bless My Birdie
This monsoon, it had rained real crazy..!! This was after maybe a decade or so. It was one of those heavily pouring mornings that a pigeon had crashed bang on to the verandah glass door and fallen down. The poor … Continue reading
Part- II “Working Out”
This is in continuation to my earlier post- Part-I “Working Up”. ~*~*~ My Life had as if hit a dead point in June- 2008. I had spent 4 complete months locked up inside a room in a Guest House. It was during … Continue reading
Part-I “Working Up”
It’s been a month and a few days that I have been riding high on top of my Exercising Bike. It seems that I have lost a few inches 😀 Maybe another fortnight would slip me into my dresses again. … Continue reading
Look Around- Open Up
Life isn’t all that bad.. All you need to do is, remove the blind- fold. Let the light reach your eyes. It’s all around you. You have chosen to stay blind- folded!! Really, just look around- don’t you see it’s … Continue reading
Tale of 2 brothers
Disclaimer: Please proceed reading this post at your own risk. The contents of this post maybe distasteful and invoke depression. This post about what happened in 1998; also connects me to my present day. I have restrained my choice of … Continue reading
Invoking the Goddess’s Divinity in Me
Introduction: Mahishashura Mardini (Annihilation of Mahisasura), a collection of verses and songs broadcast by All India Radio, Calcutta (now Kolkata) at 4 am, in the dawn of Mahalaya. Birendra Krishna Bhadra (1905 – 1991) was an Indian broadcaster, playwright, actor and theatre director from Kolkata, … Continue reading
Hitting yet another Milestone
My being passionate, strong- willed and determined; was tested time and again. I would have been lost, getting crushed along with the dry leaves years back. It was only due to my being adamant to stay alive; that I have … Continue reading
Standing at a Cross- Road
A table clock has 12 marks displaying the 12 hours of a day. After crossing 12 at noon, it again strikes 1. Here I am, standing exactly where I had stood 12 years back. Some huge Divine Clock had as … Continue reading
I want to Break Free
I had turned into a recluse- Blogging has pushed me back to Life. I don’t vent, I communicate. Beyond words, relationships and limitations, i.e., It’s my mind talking out loud in open. Let everyone comment. The good ones make me … Continue reading
My Saturday Date
It was sweet- I choose to call it a Date.. 😀 Perhaps, no-one gets as many opportunities as I do. To live, forgive and enjoy. I had traced my ex- boss, on FB late night after pressing that post. Really … Continue reading
Killing myself over- Almost
Disclaimer: Please proceed reading this post at your own risk. The contents of this post maybe distasteful and invoke depression. The choice of words have been well thought of. The image is as on Site. ~*~*~ I had needed some … Continue reading
Getting Prepared and Stepping Out
To help me out and assist, Ruby had involved everyone- from herself to her boyfriend. Sanjay had prepared my CV at his home Computer. The xerox of my 10th standard certificate was done at his place of work. It was a … Continue reading
My Life working with Jaypee Hotels
My Life was soon to turn towards a peculiar incident. All that fun was about to end. As if I had known how that was about to change my course of Life; I had freaked out as much as possible. … Continue reading
My Life, while working in Hotel Siddharth
The time I have spent working with Siddharth Hotel wasn’t all that bad either. I have made some good memories too. ~*~*~ Once I had made 15 sales in a month. Thats when I had taken home a salary of … Continue reading
Trip to Residency Manor
My Life was rocking. I was able to meet my sales target month after month to earn my 3800/- every month. I had started interacting with some “educated” people around. Although- not cultured enough. Niharika would treat everyone around as … Continue reading
My First Job, of friends and foes- III
An orphan by identity, staying in a village, working in a five star hotel, trying to kick a loser out of my Life; I had learnt the art of putting up a facade all too well, a little too early. … Continue reading
My First Job, of friends and foes- II
While I was settling down into my new Life, Blotch was as if getting sucked out of my days- automatically. He would keep telling me that he would soon find out where I worked. And so..? Create nuisance there too- … Continue reading
My First Job, of friends and foes- I
I had found my Life back. Atleast the realization that I could, had very well set my mind up. Ruby had managed to made me live my Life again. Those few days that I had spent with her, she had spent … Continue reading
Stepping Out
I had made it firm- in my mind. I knew that that was the only logical conclusion; one that was practical and the only possible one. There wasn’t any other option available anyways..!! Weighing all the pros and cons; I … Continue reading
Churning of My Life
While writing my earlier post; I noticed an uncanny relevance with a “Pauranic” (referring to Puranas) depiction. I have re-produced some of that for my Readers’ benefit. ~*~*~ Indra, the King of Devatas, while riding on an elephant, came across a … Continue reading
Relation with my Relatives
I still spent my weekends at masi’s place often. Once it so happened that during my stay, Runa had come over with Pradeep (her husband). She had as if completely ignored my greeting her. She had reacted as if I … Continue reading
Collecting more nonsense
men, men and more of them.. all of them!! You noticed that right- beginning the 1st word with a small alphabet- that’s all they have earned from me. So far, all of them have proven their genes- each one of … Continue reading
Walking through the Cemetery
Life’s not been easy for me. Struggle has been beyond “updating CV” and sit for the “interview rounds”… well beyond every conceivable struggle that any girl from a respectable family could undergo. Thanks to my Parents- mom, dad and mama. Don’t … Continue reading
Parched Courtyard of my Life
I had walked on edge nearly for one whole year taking nonsenses beyond description. Make that since 23rd October, ’95 onwards, till a couple of years back.. Mom had told me, how dad used to make her eat from the … Continue reading
The Ruins of My Past
One after the other, the festivals had come up.. and gone too. On both the Divali fest, he had been missing. Sitting and boozing with his dad; at his home. I was left alone- all to myself. I had called … Continue reading
Errors in Trials of My Survival
Previous- Not yet squashed While my survival was becoming tougher day by day; my ability to stick to my resolution too was. I used to stay in my classroom after- hours, till evening. Until the College Hostel gates remained opened. Since Electricity … Continue reading
Not yet squashed
I couldn’t mourn for my losses. Infact, I had nothing left to myself. Everything that was mine or could have been; were was lost. Like blown away with the wind. I could only sit and hold myself tightly, so I … Continue reading
Thrown out of my Home
As I was about to leave for my masi’s place that evening; Shipra had asked me not to come back to “her” house again. She had rudely reminded me that the “deadline” to leave her place had expired. Either ways, … Continue reading
End of Innocence
Edit: I have traced my very close friend Amit Taneja in FB. We studied together in GFPS till 8th. I addressed him as Tanu then. I had kept a little unwell today. Cramps..!! Evening, when the cramps had left, the … Continue reading
Gotten Rid Of
This post onwards, “mom” would only be mentioned as a part of my memory. I had lost her forever. With her leaving me; I had as if grown up in fortnight. Quite Literally. The power to “judge” was bestowed upon … Continue reading
Rock
Geological- naturally occurring solid aggregate of minerals and or mineraloids. Music- form of popular music. Rock- star, Rock- Bottom, Rock- hard.. Rocking- chair, Rocking- cradle.. Still not saying anything- is it? Excepting for- it is.. a lot. It completely depends on … Continue reading
Eclipse
My Life had come to a stand still. I had put up a facade of being composed and unaffected.. unaware. I was more than alert. The next day, a Solar Eclipse had occurred. The major one that happened in decades in Delhi. … Continue reading
No Moon Night
Disclaimer: Please read the post at your own risk. The contents may evoke depression. Jyotsna means- moonlight. ~*~*~ One night when I was asleep, mom had woken me up to share something. She had “taken” her passbooks >back< from Samanta. … Continue reading
Those were the best days of my Life
My mom had as if gone dumbstruck by what I had done. I had felt her changing completely. She had never wanted to know where I was when I was gone for the 2nd time. That was so unlikely of … Continue reading
My 1st Crush was my last Affair
And has crushed my being tad too mercilessly. Why my fate had to be so cruel? Why couldn’t it be a little more gracious to me? Why couldn’t my fate let me R.I.P.? Why does it always nudge me back … Continue reading
Sleeping Beauty
The one thing I have developed to do more often and heavily now is Sleeping.. So what? Isn’t that supposed to be a part of Daily Routine? Yes and No. Yes, as in obviously; No, because things were very very different … Continue reading
My Guardian Angel
Soon, things would turn massively ugly. This is what I have been saving my breath for. I just want to type them all without feeling the hurt, yet again. They have been all very damaging both directly and passively, don’t … Continue reading
Happening of My friend for Life
I was enrolled for tuition classes in 10th. Our teacher was a South Indian Muslim. Sorry, I have erased his name from my mind on purpose. He stayed in Uttranchal- next to my society. Ashish studied in Modern School and … Continue reading
Being Left Alone
My school- time in LIS is still a blur. Not that I don’t recall the events, but they are best forgotten. Excepting a few incidents and friends- all of which are already mentioned about- I don’t wish to think of … Continue reading
Change- over..
Of my school, residence, locality, friends.. wait, were there any? When in 6th, our school was to perform in National School for Scouts and Guides on 12th August- only a day after my birthday. In 7th standard; that happened to … Continue reading
Void Blossoming on Me
8th June, 1988- Wedneday. Evening: Dad had already carried his violin and his few other belongings with him, a few days back. The Green and Yellow double- sided bedsheet, a small knife and his clothes. He had called me and enquired … Continue reading
Vacuum growing in Me..
Doorbell rang, Dad had been missing for weeks now; Masi and Mesho had appeared instead. I was sent out of the house just then. I had kept standing with Mona at the Park for 4 hours. I could as if understand … Continue reading
My Happy Days were over
My giggling, chirping days were soon over. They were halted quite abruptly. I had as if grown up suddenly. I could read and understand things. Minutely. I had started to brood. I would often sit and ponder upon mom’s falling … Continue reading
Childhood Pics- II
Previous- Childhood Pics- I That old lady on the cot is “Dotto Masima”- as mom addressed her. Now you know- how well I have remembered my early childhood days. We had shifted from Lakshmi Nagar to Kalyanvas when I was admitted … Continue reading
My early childhood memories
Previous- Shaping up my Mind- III You wouldn’t believe that I still do remember my early childhood days spent in Lakshmi Nagar. That was before I started going to school.. What was my age then?? Often sitting at the entrance of … Continue reading
