Tag Archives: Relationships

Turning away to look beyond

I am sitting from where I still see someone dropping me home one late evening. The moment and several more preceding that became perfect reminders to who I am. Yearlong period of yearning and wishing had met fulfillment in that one … Continue reading

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Rewriting the concluding page

I finished drafting the last chapter of that book I was reading yesterday. Certain amount of emptiness filled my state of being since I started to plot. This one had to be concluded here regardless of the mood it’ll end … Continue reading

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Sole existence

A strange feeling is seizing my mind, a mixed reaction for the days to come. I’ll be alone, left completely on my own. It’s been a while since I tasted solitude. At the farthest scratch it lasted only few hours … Continue reading

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Celebrating mom’s demise…

Time spent with mum suddenly seems distant. Memories associated are growing hazy like some old discarded mirror left unclean reflecting the light with the dust eating at the contours of the reflection. I haven’t quite survived the loss though I pretended … Continue reading

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Deliverance

Abundance was seeping into average and before I knew, it blended with insignificance only to become non- existent. My identity and the amount of contentment waned before I could register the nightmare coming to shape. Self-dependence had zoomed straight into nothingness. It … Continue reading

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A love story- long lost

With each passing day I feel calming within like death filling in with its nothingness. After a long while, I prepared coffee for myself after an evening head wash. I feel at peace within. Just before stepping into that warm … Continue reading

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Framed

The beaded string wall hangings were out a month back, Ganshu darling was made to sit back at his place a fortnight later. Today, I took mom’s picture photo frames out too. The frames occupied the wall- space as though … Continue reading

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Weathering up

When kids, we are happy, playful and ever- rejoicing. Our only worry: how to add to merry making! Then one day, we grow up. We all do. Our playful self gets locked up in the closet with our toys if … Continue reading

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Celebrating an anniversary

20th January, 2003 One Monday that was (a decade back), that changed my life. I wish I could add- for good. There were people and celebrations alright; but something still had made me cry. I didn’t have a family, so … Continue reading

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Misplaced Relationships (edit)

I have been wedded for a decade now. If only the said wedlock had held true even for a week. I haven’t been vocal about it. To gain what in turn? Some rude judgements? Negating opinions? More questions? My father … Continue reading

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Misplaced relationships

Today’s my wedding anniversary and I am definitely excited. Just how many long years I’ve waited for this day. I saw this date some six years back, well almost… but the day never arrived. Not then. I have been married … Continue reading

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Prayers; I need those not

The day you are ready to do what I want or do if you already are, the day you understand what I need, the day you feel you wish to know what I do (need), the day you do all … Continue reading

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Action replay

Almost all my writes are soaked in my tears. Not in an attempt to find the right word; which, by the way does happen while zeroing in on the title; but, remembering a date from past with similar shades threatening … Continue reading

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Everything’s due to a change now…

My analysis is yet to reach a conclusion! A fleeting thought; yet, expressed and with a load of conviction, conveyed (in time) to the one it concerns. A few highly insignificant things took to occurrence for me to reach the … Continue reading

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Transitory

I love taking trips… and that is an understatement. To me, the thrill of starting a travel is far greater than the reaching to a new destination. In other words, I don’t look forward to reaching and making the most … Continue reading

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Feelinglessness

I am numb again. For crying out loud, it’s a chewing gum and I am not chewing. Instead of feeling depressed like I did earlier every time it progressed any further; today, I feel light headed- as though unburdened… relieved … Continue reading

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Karma… my savior for today!

This instance dates back to when I was in 7th standard. The boys’ gang and I were bunking the Library period. We loved to irritate the teacher. Through the whole half hour of that Friday after the recess period, she … Continue reading

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What about NOW…?

It was in winters last year, December of 2011; when I had popped up the question one more time. I choose to leave it on to the readers’ imagination to take a guess about it. There weren’t any words given … Continue reading

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Dumbstruck!

6th May, 2012- 6.30pm I am walking the way down to my house. Serenity is playing around as much as loneliness on my state of being. For most of you, “feeling lonely” is a phrase, for me it’s a call that … Continue reading

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Being thrown at; around

I have failed to understand, how can people cut off on me? Am I such a retard that I don’t understand that they possibly don’t want me anywhere around them or is it that I have a great knack of … Continue reading

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Death of a relationship

Firstly, I can’t take rejections, secondly, it stabs my heart to let go of people and then, if I am left to stay dumb… that’s a perfect recipe to whip me into a cryptic psychopath! If I say that this … Continue reading

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It ends here

It’s been a year that I’ve been contemplating committing it. Just who knows I might have taken some step towards achieving the desired outcome already? I am not a coward, that’s all they say; I won’t. But before I fall myself … Continue reading

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Love lost…

… and a piece of my heart too! Don’t ask if we ever loved one another… how does it matter now? It’s the result that matters, efforts don’t count. they only reflect in your concluded concoction. It’s 3.30 past midnight … Continue reading

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Sketching my life

“Things we lose have a way of coming back to us in the end. If not always in the way we expect.” I would add: rather a li’l too wildly at that. One of the Luna Lovegood’s quotes from the … Continue reading

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Anti- social tick!

The whole day went by but I couldn’t concentrate enough and so, didn’t sketch any. I spent some “quality” time face-booking today though 🙂 The 1st 3 hours because I failed to upload a video and rest actually trolling around … Continue reading

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Beyond my wits!

It is only right that every end marks the birth of a new beginning! They say all that begins comes to an end so anything that was born will die its own or brought upon it death. It’s also true … Continue reading

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Discovering what Love means

“Love Means Never Having to Say You’re Sorry..” Cold weather, freezing winter winds and one soppy teary Love Story– and what have you? Last few weeks, I have been watching movies, the English movies. Quite surprisingly I have started watching … Continue reading

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Left out..

Just finished watching “Bol” Wish I could put up the same question as the lead actress, the narrator herself does in the movie, to my dad.. Ironically, he is still alive and I’m no better than dead. Why killing is … Continue reading

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Screaming solitude

Lack of communication leads to disaster results- says my best friend Ruby! That’s one of the things I can’t handle besides rejection and indifference. Come to think of it- all of these are very much related to each other. An … Continue reading

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Living some life!

Sharing every detail of the day that just passed by like any other, with a laughter and glow in your eyes like it was a special one.. Sharing the passwords of your internet accounts.. Letting the other one see how … Continue reading

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Lifelessly alone

17th November, 2011 My best friend Ranu Arora who I lost within a few months of our friendship, one who had first created an impression on me to communicate formally even with friends had once pointed out; I tend to … Continue reading

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Please don’t stop the music!

One of the few things left for me to explore and take forward is my passion for music. When I say music, it is beyond listening to a few “fave” songs on the music system as it used to be … Continue reading

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Not a love- letter!

Introduction: I am starting to write about my present day things- or may I say the details of my soon to be the last phase! I am at the fag end of a helpless and ridiculous arrangement that had turned … Continue reading

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Self- ish Thoughts

I had so wanted to write about the new book I am writing in this post. I will do that here; however, this would be the concluding page or so I think for now. I am now writing the last … Continue reading

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Concluding a relationship!

The last phase of transition has brought upon me yet another period of transition. This is what I have been brooding about since long. The un-canniness of the stances has left me incapacitated. Where do I even begin? My life … Continue reading

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Falling in Love

Sweetheart, Will you hold my hand and come with me to that water fall for once? … Look around; isn’t it serene? Go and stand under that spring. Do it now. … How do you feel? Without your asking for … Continue reading

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Broken!

What is worse than getting hurt? It’s the pain of carrying the spilling tears all the way through your transit to hit the confines of your home to cry your heart out. That throbbing infliction makes you sigh even with … Continue reading

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Still celebrating

Loud music gives me a mind blowing high; so does vodka and quite likewise a very fast moving vehicle. At this moment, I have mixed the 1st two and am so yearning for the day the 3rd one would be … Continue reading

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My best B’de celebrated ever!

This years was most definitely the best birthday celebrations ever. I can’t even begin to put his emotions that showed and my loving it all- in words. Like I have never ever been so pampered. I missed Ruby, perhaps soon … Continue reading

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A new Beginning!

I was sat sulking and had even actually cried hoarse about being stuck in this present setup (read: helplessness). It was as though the divine patting my back to stop, I had stepped out to the living room. Pulling out … Continue reading

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Calling for a surprise!

I have no idea how this years would be! My birthdays usually have not been the very best days of the year. For as far as I remember, I have been planning the day on my own. Being surprised has … Continue reading

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Love? Most definitely- Yes!

Just reached home all chocked up with emotions. The memories of how it was, had kept coming back to me. It was difficult for me to rationalize what hurt more – then or today? I guess, you would know the answer … Continue reading

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Life coming to a full circle

Imagine a roomful of kids (or gown- ups; as you may) asked to draw random circles on a plain sheet of paper. A myriad presentation of unending lines would appear on your table; upon submission. Some would be concentric, yet … Continue reading

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Writing over..

There is a certain degree of sensuality involved in feeling tired because of work. It gives me a sense of involvement and fulfillment with an extra opportunity to shine my skills. Did you notice how I said “skills” and not … Continue reading

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Leave Me alone

Dedication: This one is dedicated to all those incorrigible women who are “married respectfully” in the eye of society and take great honor in sharing the stinking details of their rotting relationship/wedlock! Listening to their stories, it feels as though … Continue reading

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A Parcel of Love from Jannie

Here I am sitting all stuffed up on my Computer chair- actually a dining chair pulled in to set with my desktop and writing this. Today was indeed a day full of surprises. Just when I thought I’ll share the … Continue reading

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In love again!

27th May, 2011 I am in love again! It just feels so good. I haven’t been in love really. The only someone I have loved ever, is all locked up in me about. After HIM and maybe after a couple … Continue reading

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Making a move

A few days from now, I’ll be stepping out of my homebound captivity! I have been calling upon this for a very long time. Maybe since the very day I had left my last real job. Or maybe the day … Continue reading

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Men are indeed from Mars

Disclaimer: This post is a direct result of my experience with men. There, I said it! They are anything but even remotely connected to the women species. I guess the Project UFO should end here. It’s them invading our planet. … Continue reading

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Stark Entity

I admire birds for a very strong reason. Try and tease one or pour a bucket of water when they may not be watching; they will simply fly away, never to come back. They would never stop in their flight … Continue reading

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